Mating Ritual - Second chance

I wrote this song
A thousand times
Cause all the messes that I make are getting difficult to hide
I take my life, I box it up
I light a match and take a breath and watch the flames do what they want
When I was really young
My father taught me that a fire cleanses everything
A fresh set of your dreams
But now the smoke is filling up my lungs and I'm, I'm suffocating

I know what you did
I can't believe you right now
You had a second chance you fucked it up again, oh no
I love what we had
But I don't need another friend
I got a second chance to make it I'm jumping off the ledge

I wish I knew
What people felt
I wish that I could hear what you do when I open up my mouth
I thought by now, I'd know who I am
But maybe growing up is realizing you'll never understand

When I was 21I'd waste my nights getting drunk in a Tustin living room
My mattress on the floor
But now I need something stronger just to get me there And I'm disintegrating

I know what you did
I can't believe you right now
You had a second chance you fucked it up again, oh no
I love what we had
But I don't need another friend
I got a second chance to make it I'm jumping off the ledge

This is my
This my last
This is my
This my chance
This is my last second chance to prove

This is my
This my last
This is my last second chance
This is my last second chance to prove

That I'm not you
That I'm not you
That I'm not you
Last second chance to prove
Last second chance to prove
That I'm not you

I know what you did
I can't believe you right now
You had a second chance you fucked it up again, oh no

I love what we had
But I don't need another friend
I got a second chance, to make it, I'm jumping off the ledge