The Away Days - Messiah

It took a while to find my head
Halfway round' the world
The thousand miles through my bed

I've thought I'd be happy out there
But i was wrong about that and so many other things
I beloved count of my mistakes

And I'm so scared
Of this man that i become
I said myself to failure
And everything i've ever done

I'm the king of my own desaster
I'm my king of [?]
I'm the god of my own
Holy rapture
I'm a leader messiah

I'm giving up on looking for the one
She's not out there
So I spilled my heart out in the sun
I'll never be happy out there
Cause I don't care
About anyone except myself
I just want to stay at home

And I'm so scared
Of this man that i become
I said myself to failure
And everything i've ever done

I'm the king of my own desaster
I'm my king of [?]
I'm the god of my own
Holy rapture
I'm a leader messiah

And the time I spent
Doing nothing is fucking ridiculous
I'm lazy and drunk and sad
So put your arms around me
And I'll show you
The worst night that you ever had

I'm the king of my own desaster
I'm my king of [?]
I'm the god of my own
Holy rapture
I'm a leader messiah

Can you feel my desire?
Can you be my messiah?