Future of the Purple - Gravity

I wanna write the perfect line
The kind that cures tragedies
You take it like a xanny
And you wash away the agony

But if I were to write it
I would give it all to prove
That I'm losing all the things I fear
I lose it all to you

Because it's all I have to give myself
The only kind of gravity
The only bed I fall upon
To wash away the apathy

It never fucking works for me
You never see me cry
Because these words are like an anchor that had kept me from the sky

I know they never cared
I know they never do
But if it wasn't big enough
I couldn't say I knew

It's hard to hide the things I fear
My fear of falling through
I think of how to please myself
I hate I'm helping you

I feel betrayed
My tears are black like a funeral
I'm sure you had a taste of it
But didn't think it through

It's all the same
I want you to be happy
Even if it makes me feel like I'm unatural
I'm so fucking betrayed

I'm trying to stand tall
But every time I do
I'm afraid of falling down
That's why you have to tell me what you really mean
That's why you have to tell me what you see in him
I know he told you things I never could
But I wish I understand
I really wish you would
And tell me how I feel betrayed
And tell me how this feels for you
And tell me how the world will turn
And tell me how it's healing you

I feel betrayed
My tears are black like a funeral
I'm sure you had a taste of it
But didn't think It through

It's all the same
I want you to be happy
Even if it makes me feel like I'm unnatural
I'm so fucking betrayed

I'm out of my god damn head
I'm fucking sick of it
I'm crying onto my bed
I'm in the thick of it
I'm out of my god damn head
I'm fucking sick of it
I'm out of my fucking head

I know they never cared
I know they never do
But if it wasn't big enough
I couldn't say I knew

It's hard to hide the things I fear
My fear of falling through
I think of how to please myself
I hate I'm helping you

I feel betrayed
My tears are black like a funeral
I'm sure you had a taste of it
But didn't think It through

It's all the same
I want you to be happy
Even if it makes me feel like I'm unnatural
I'm so fucking betrayed

Why you betray my love yeah
Why you betray my trust yeah
Why you betray my love for you

I feel betrayed
My tears are black like a funeral
I'm sure you had a taste of it
But didn't think It through

It's all the same
I want you to be happy
Even if it makes me feel like I'm unnatural
I'm so fucking betrayed