Bulldog Eyes - Novel

I see places that I used to love in pictures
and im feeling like im staring at a life I don't remember
as I think about your bike tires in the winter
and how by the time I told you it didn't matter

I stayed home and read a novel made of gibberish
and I wish I had worked harder then my life would be much different
but my father he has crippled me fromstarting
and now I fall asleep at 4am disheartened

I would kill him in my dreams
I used to crush his skull to dust
and now he's rotting in my childhood home alone

one long scar along my wrist reads please get better
and im feeling like im staring at a life I don't remember
and I tried to tape it shut and sleep it off
I got sick from all the blood that I had lost
I am thankful for the people that I knew and friends I'd made
but that feeling sometimes still if goes away