Stars hollow - Clound envy

I wanna die laughing
Falling into a pile of leaves
All along not knowing
a bed of nails was underneath
but I know that it's hard to wake up in the morning

I'll always fall short of what's expected of me
But I'll be the finest shell that a casket has ever seen
Did you ever see?
Did you ever see me?

I wanna die lonely
because I've never been good at goodbyes
Always just floating along
Wishing I was just in the sky

I have cloud envy
But the way I feel swallows me
Choking me down, gnawing it's teeth
Until I'm asleep six feet deep
Gasping for air, I can't breathe

I know it shouldn't be
But I know it's meant to be
~~My cemetery~~