Fallen Yggdrasil - You Suicide Me

I tried to built a castle of the lime-tree's wood -
but I cannot find shelter.
It resisted water, resisted storm, but broke at last -
because it cannot bear fire.

This is not my world I am living in -
And it has never been.
You have never tried to understand.
I don't understand what reason you might have
to hate me that much -
you are my hetaera esmeralda.

As dying dreams change to doubt
ungiven trust cannot ensure.
Are you aware of what you've done to me?
You don't feel! But I feel! I feel - what?

You suicide Me!

I fly - to where I think heaven is.
I die - the sun melts my wings.
I kiss you, you kick me - you suicide me.
I kiss you, you kick me - you suicide me.