Handguns - I Hope He Kills You

I won't say “I hope you're happy with him”.
I promised myself this year I would tell the truth.
I’ll pretend my heart’s not breaking.
It’s taking everything I have not to call you back.
I hope he breaks you down.
The next time you call, I won’t be around.
No one ever made me feel like you did
and now I’m struggling to feel anything at all.
It may sound mean like I’m not understanding.
I understand it all too well and I hope that you fall.
You’re always on the wrong end of the turnpike.
I want to choke myself to death with the phone line.
“Go your own way and I’ll be with you”,
(FSF - Wearing Thin) but nothing that you ever say could make me hate you.
Don’t want to laugh last, I don’t want to say “ I told you so”.
I want you to call me back and say “I love you”, because I’ve got nowhere to go.
These nights spent alone without you are dragging me down.
Though I know that this seems bitter,
It's how I get through these nights without you.
I hope that this doesn’t come out wrong
but I’d do anything to make you feel on top of the world,
and I’ll still be here just like I have always been.