Catapuration - Gate to nothingness

Wish to break up this misery
Repress the dismay, distress and dive
Relief for all, for me
Thoughts are stinging like a knife
Trembling shape on the scarp
Infinite fall towards the stars

It's like hammer stroke
Again received liberty
Broken shackles, shattered oaths
feeling of alleviation
Till death do us part
Resound like a reverberation
Like a distant unfinished dream
Like request whispering to the wind

Eternal flight to the abyss
It's the end of existence
Or is it just slight
Pace to the other side
This courage, persuation
Certainty breakage on stone
Of forever free suicide

Part of myself
I lay to your grave
Alone with affliction,
Empty dreams, spectres,
Anger and contrition

Approaching dawn of eternity
Rays of sun in ragged mist
Me amidst this tranquility
Unattatched and vacant
For what is this freedom
Before wanted so much?
Now, when I hold it
This feeling I hate
To be allowed to return
To duration of pleasure
Albeit without awareness