Silentium - Shame

I gave you all I had
And more
I let you in the door
Once more
I can't blame you for bleeding me
I offered my heart to the slaughter
This time there's no freeing me
Succumb to the black muddy waters
How do you grieve for a mere illusion?
So many tears for a fool's delusion
I have no one to shame but me
The blame lies on my weary shoulders
I was blind I refused to see
Love crushed by a Sisyphus' boulder
How do you grieve for a mere illusion?
So many tears for a fool's delusion
How many times did I try to pull away?
And every time I gave in anyway
Please, release
Need to breathe
Don't repeat
Admit defeat
Please, release
Give me peace
Don't repeat
Love deplete
Please, release
Need to breathe
Don't repeat
Admit defeat
Please, release
Give me peace
Don't repeat
Love deplete
How many times did I try to pull away?
And every time I gave in anyway
I gave in anyway