Nullingroots - Please Respond

I try, but I get no response
I beg for God to rid this pain
An affidavit to my own well-being that may never be answered
If not for me, then for that who I’ve brought into this world, 18 years ago
The only thing that keeps me in contentment to this day
I am not worthy of such a selfish request otherwise, to benefit my life to serve my selfish comfort
A trudge worth marching
I want you in my life
Please respond, I need you
With palms clasped shut and eyes sealed closed, I beg for God to rid this pain
A deafening silence consumes me, it engulfs me
This silence consumes me
I beg for God to rid this pain, I Beg for your divinity
I want, I need you
I’m left cold, numb, hanged to dry
I see no light, no miracles, no salvation
Why do I get no answer? I believe in you, I repent, I love you.
Please respond