Black Blood of the Earth - At a Standstill

Coldness of my skin is dismaying me
I can feel their presence, although I can't see
Can't open my eyes
Droning deep inside

Swish of surgeon's knife resounds from high
What my ears hear, my mind denies
Riving old scars
It's gone too far

Fugitive from the sprights
Assaulting the gates of my mind
Dreadful and slack as a rag
Deceived to get a relief

Bringing back to mind the times of old
And your hands avid for ardent soul

But nothing has changed, range
of betterment failed to reveal
Rot with no chance to redeem
Waiting for the desired end

Why cannot I
Ease the burden ingrained within
But strive in vain
Stuck forever at a standstill

The sense of loss melts away
Returning hollow and stiff
As drugs circulate in my veins
Shown pain that never leaves

Why cannot I
Ease the burden ingrained within
But strive in vain
Stuck forever at a standstill

Floating over a vivid space
We've got the same emotionless gaze
See my hatred grow as you get close
You want blood, but mine is the worst

The dried-up gunge starts to peel
so little to bereave
I stand astir about to veer
as long as I deceive