Aska - Message from God

Twenty years to the day I have suffered with this
Some days are better than others I'm not going to lie to you
And yes, I confess - I've thought about ending it all
I had the gun in my mouth but I couldn't follow through
If you must know the truth, GOD speaks to me
Conversations last for hours I'm not going to lie to you
And yes, I'll address your questions and disbelief
But it's GOD that's talking to me as sure as the sky is blue

HE calls my name, HE gives me the answers to the mysteries of life
Yet you don't believe, you tell me I'm crazy
But HE told me you'd say that

What? - I tried to tell you but you just won't hear me
What? - I tried to make it clear but you just don't see
We can sit here if it takes forever
But you'll always doubt my Message from God

See the smile on my face, it's a masquerade
It helps me hold in the pain I'm not going to lie to you
And yes, I'm a mess but I've been there before
It's loud and clear in my head I know what I'm going to do
And you sit there with your forced smiles
In your condescending fashion like you do
And you try to convince me that what I think is God
Is a figment of my imagination
But you're so wrong about that, you say it's in my head
HE told me you'd say that

This is a Message from God