Young Ghosts - Relapse

Maybe it’s just bad luck
Maybe it’s worse
Maybe it’s just bad luck
Maybe I’m cursed
Cursed to walk the earth in this skin
While paranoid delusions come creeping in
I try to fix my mind, learn to fill in the gaps
But everyday feels like another relapse
I don’t think they’ll ever let me free
Round and round my mind they go
When they'll stop I don't fucking know
Everyday I feel so goddamn trapped
Ready to crack
It’s another relapse
I don’t have thoughts my thoughts have me
I know every single thing that I lack
And what I’ve lost I’ll never get back
I can’t control anything from my past
Cause what I’ve lost is still not enough. It’s another relapse
But I’ll never turn back to your so called savior
Even while I hold myself prisoner
I may be my own hostage
Forget my faith, I’m glad I lost it
No prayers
No pleas
I won’t live my life on my knees
No grace
No peace
I can’t trust more than I see