Tranny - Maybe

I thought that you had feelings for me
I thought that you meant those words
I knew exactly what you were doing
But I still believed in your lies

Why am I unable to resist you?
Could it be your body?
Could it be how you act?
Or is it all the relationships of the past?

Maybe I get so easily attached
Because of the pain of relationships
That I have had to deal with in the past
And I want so badly to believe that it gets better

It doesn't matter at this point
I don't mean anything to you
I hate you so much, you rotten cunt
So why does it still hurt to not be loved by you?

I wish that I had the ability
To make you feel sympathy
I am just that selfish
Maybe then, you'd stay with me

Maybe I could make you feel guilty
If I just painted the sky right now
My blood being the paint
And a shotgun being the brush

But I'm sure you would feel nothing
If I died this very second
I can't kill myself anyway
I'm too scared and weak

Maybe that is just it
I deserve to be lied to
I deserve to be used
Because I am weak

I know I felt something
Even though you felt nothing
I'm not the type of man you think
Maybe I look that disgusting