The Odious Construct - Flatline

Once again I've sunken into this realm,
a dull apathy, so familiar, so real.
A mindset that musters emotions lackluster,
this false reality of faded colors.

Empty thoughts, my soul that rots alone.
Sinking down, my dreams that drown in cold.

An icy tomb a harsh defeat.

Looking up, I see only how far I've sunk.
I can go no lower.
Looking down in horror, cavernous explorer
nonconsensual relentless endeavor.
My heart beating slower.

Give me a reason why I should stay here?
my body's too tired to feel hate or fear.
No motivation to alleviate
(this) suffocating emptiness and lethargy.

Shutting down, checking out.
This is my flatline.

I am exhausted, weathered and weakened.
I am exhausted, I'm ready to sleep.

Close my eyes
I've had enough of this life
shutting down,
checking out.

Finally serenity
drifting off to sleep
please take my hand
and guide me gently

Please don't let me wake from
this peace that I've earned
this peace I deserve.
I don't want to wake from
this place of comfort
away from the hurt.