Obsidian Shell - Defender

Looking through your eyes, wish I could disappear.
Standing on the edge I have nothing to say.

I heard your request, you asked me to stay.
Please let me escape, I can not wait.
Don’t try to eliminate my withdrawnness.
I’m relentless, forgive my selfishness.

I’ve tried so hard to love others.
Always I felt being captured.
At last it was me who moved on.
Tried not to feel the weight of thorn.

Here we are and it’s all my fault.
The guilt will haunt for so long.
For years I’d been pleased on my own.
Till I released to smash my soul.

Ever since that day I’m avoiding deep links.
Have to let me soar, I can’t be chained long.

It wasn’t you who ruined my heart.
But I can’t deny what’s in my eyes.
Looking for my part that has been gone.

My life is an endless fight to love again.
Steady desire of holding hands.
How can I give up my self-defense?