Moon Valley - Cold But Stable

It used to
Be painful
Some while ago.
Excited,
Yet frightened
When she was close.

Amusement,
Distraction
Consuming my thoughts.
The sound of
Unconcern
Driving me nuts.

Let it go! (Let it go!)
I got able
To grow cold! (To grow cold!)
But stable.

Now that I've buried the way I used to think of it,
I don't even remember how it feels.
(Do you remember what it's like to fall in love?)
I don't know if I will be able to find someone...
(Can you treat her as if she is special?)
Extraordinary... ever again.

Believing
You're better
Than I can ever be.
Misguided,
And blinded,
It meant so much to me.

Now when my
Awareness
Keeps me so calm and safe,
I recall
The feelings
For which I dug this grave.