Merci, mercy - Fucked Myself Up

Life flies by when
You’re having the time of your life
But when you are down
Time stands still all around

The numbers on the wall, tell me to move on
But they don’t know what I’ve been through
As a sober fool

I’m texting numbers on purpose
And not having blood run down my knees
From drinking too much that week
And acting so naive

Fucked myself up on purpose
Cos too much is never enough
What is it you want from me?
This shit don’t come so easily

Fucked myself up on purpose
Cos too much is never enough
What is it you want from me?
This shit don’t come so easily

Tonight, to get by
I curse at the walls and question it all
They all say it’s too late to save her
And it fuels my peculiar behaviour

The doors begin to open
But I just sit here frozen in fear
I’m not here, I’m not here

Fucked myself up on purpose
Cos too much is never enough
What is it you want from me?
This shit don’t come so easily

Fucked myself up on purpose
Cos too much is never enough
What is it you want from me?
This shit don’t come so easily

I know that I’ve been selfish (Selfish)
But I couldn’t care less
I’m always going to come first (Come first)
At my best at my worst
(Yeah, I know, yeah, I know, yeah, I know)

I know that this is senseless (Senseless)
But I will not regret this
Help me to forget this
Pass me a cigarette, bitch

Fucked myself up on purpose
Cos too much is never enough
What is it you want from me?
This shit don’t come so easily

Fucked myself up on purpose
Cos too much is never enough
What is it you want from me?
This shit don’t come so easily

I’m scared to be alone
That’s why I don’t come home
(Yeah, I know, yeah, I know)
I’m fucked, I’m fucked, I’m fucked, I’m fucked
Fucked myself up on purpose

I’m scared to be alone
That’s why I don’t come home
(Yeah, I know, yeah, I know)
I’m fucked, I’m fucked, I’m fucked, I'm fucked
Fucked myself up on purpose