Mejbi - Odliczanie do mojej śmierci

On the one hand, people see happiness in me, but I am actually hiding depression. I feel pressure, I really feel it every day, I don't think I can stand it and swallow a pill. On an insta smile, on live shows, hardly anyone knows that there is something wrong with me inside. I would like to open up like the others, but I find it hard to see scars. Why was I so naive I ask, put out a number and then disappear, how long do I have to bear this burden, this is the ocean in which I can't swim. First drugs, break-ups and first trips this year, I don't want to get addicted, but it's probably too late.

Before I die, I would like to tell you the truth, my life is not a fairy tale and it has never been easy, despite the fact that I receive support, I also feel emptiness, the most I look forward to the day when I will fall asleep forever. I really need love and understanding, I'm terribly shy, that's why I don't have anyone. For me, this is my whole life, for you, just a song, life is a game, I had to lose it, in fact I'm only afraid of rejection, the year has passed and I have no one to give my heart to, this song is the most honest to me, if nothing is wrong it won't change, i'll have to get fucked.