Dream Drop - Periphery

Gotta stop not to drop, can't hop to top
Can't live standing still with a mind this ill
Need a daily dose of change to keep me sane
Creativity keeps me in peace
I'm still just a kid with all these feelings
I don't know how to cope with
Cutting me sleepless, sending me back
I relapse to that old dark path
Where dreams go to die and I'm a wreck

The creative adult
Is the child that survived
Who never let their color run out

'Cus you are nothing but peripheral
You think you're alive but you're on a schedule
To be something that you don't want to be
Here's the truth
You're not

I've seen people work their way from
Bottom to top like they're never gonna stop
Like it isn't enough
While you're filling up your cup
I'll be at home watching you rot
Expanding my plot while you're giving yours up
Need more time, everything feels wrong
Skipping school just to write more songs
More focused than ever, completely involved
Knowing we're worthless, won't make me fall

The creative adult
Is the child that survived
Who never let their color run out

'Cus I am nothing but peripheral
I think I'm alive but I'm on a schedule
To be something that I don't want to be
Here's the truth
I'm not

We're not on time so we'll be declined
All we care about is between this lines
Of insane and genius working for reasons
No one can understand unless they have demands
For themselves and their goals
Or you'll be stuck in a hole relapsing to old ways
I'm sick of these dark days and we're all wrecks
Anxiety in stacks, invisible at first glance
But seen through the cracks
But we were taught what to think instead of how to think
But we don't work that way so all we do is sink
Like a dog on a chain that wants to be free
I guess I'm destined to live chained to a tree

'Cus we are nothing but peripheral
We think we're alive but we're on a schedule
To be something that we don't want to be
Here's the truth
We're not free