Chokehold - Threads

Once again with the gun in my hand, pull the top and down it goes
I escaped this hole years ago now I’m looking out from the bottom
These aren’t mistakes but the choices I have made
I have regrets about the choices I’ve made

I can’t take another day
Living in this mental haze
Not another fucking day
I wish I had any sort of strength
sick and depressed and life seems like a chore
I’m not sure I can give any more
I don’t know if I know another way out

I fill my head with endless excuses and lies
One more day I need to forget, another night I need to slip away
I keep thinking that I’m better than this
But I know I’m just tired and weak

You saved me before. Can you save me again?
I can’t take another day
It’s in my blood but not in my heart
My curse that I can’t push away

You saved me once before, can you save me again