Artrosis - Laudanum

LAUDANUM*

(I am) Open to fear
(I am) Open to pain
I wash my face
In a stream of bad words**
I do not know how to live anymore
Should I still going on?
Forget what's wrong?
Bounce off of the bottom?
Like a living torch, I burn inside, where
Where love drowns, where my world is lost
(I am) So unlike from the years ago
My loud laughter you had charmed out into cry
That's how I wanted to love you ...
That's how I wanted to love you ...
That's how I wanted to love you ...
Like laudanum, you circulate in my blood
Inhuman words hurt more than the worst act
That's how I wanted to love you ...
(I am) Open to fear and open to pain
That's how I wanted to love you ...
To that one from long time ago
(I am) no longer similar
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*Laudanum - "Narkotyk na wszystko
Oszałamiająca kariera opium rozpoczęła się w XVI wieku za sprawą medyka Paracelsusa. Spopularyzował on lek na wszystko, który nazwał laudanum (łac. Pochwalać). Za tą górnolotną etykietą stało sproszkowane opium, które później zaczęto rozpuszczać w alkoholu. Tę miksturę stosowano szeroko aż do XX wieku"
http://www.focus.pl/artykul/narkotyk-na-wszystko

** potok słów has double meaning, 1 is like stream of water which she is using to wash her face, 2. is like torrent of bad words she can't deal with anymore