Netra - Definition of Love

Hockeymask -

I'm empty, all I do is drink excessively
to the point it's hard for my brain to retain memory.
Forget everything, just get a drink.
I never think; 'cause everything depresses me.
I don't care about anything
just need a series of girls to endlessly pleasure me,
in a constant fuck-fest of rough sex
buying booze for girls that ain't even 21 yet.
Probably got aids but I never got the blood test,
I don't care either way I could give a fuck less.
Life is orderless, Kind of bored of it,
wish my doctor was more like Kevorkian.
Pass the pills, I don't wanna have to feel
constantly contemplate suicide - but lack the will
Taking shots gazing off looking dazed and lost,
Something must've derailed my train of thoughts.
Agoraphobic introvert - I'm a nervous wreck
Clean cut but creepy as fuck like Herbert West
Poppin' percocets, not concerned with death,
the brain damage I've acquired has all been permanent.
Wallow in worthlessness and dirty sex
with teenage girls with perfect sets of perky breasts
I came to the conclusion that this life just didn't matter
& started slowly killing myself in tiny different patterns.

Konsept -

Mentally damaged, socially challenged
corroded my intestines ingesting dope by the gallons.
Wrestle around in this head that's never been balanced
Getting head from a chick that said sex is her only talent.
I wouldn't doubt it, I stay surrounded by idiots
interested in nothing but fucking sucking and sniffing shit.
This is it, there ain't nothing more to this life
your born with addictive traits then you suffer from them and die.
My eyes reflections the naked body of lillith
embracing satan and saying the spell that probably killed us
Father rebuild us, look at your flock of children
we're nothing but talking monkeys and junkies who never feel when...
Enough's enough, fuck it, who gives a fuck
if I overdose on this oxy it's awesome - I've given up.
Tipping the cup as I drink of the precious blood
My sins were never forgiven - my definition of love.