Hammy - Love is Just a Lie

lost and decayed
my mind is a maze
can't find the light
so it's dark everyday
running away
I fucked all up
I'm sorry that I can't be happy enough

I'm trying my best
I swear that I am
my brain wants me dead
and you don't understand
you don't understand
you don't understand
how could you get me
I don't know who I am

first you love me
then you hate me
this not a game bitch
you can't fucking play me
you broke my heart
but you still fucking blame me
I'm hanging on the edge
and you would never save me

smoking blunts
till my lungs are dust
yeah I fucked it up
I don't give a fuck
I have dreams of death
every damn night
man I hate my life
and this not right
I'm goin 160 on the freeway
I wanna swerve off into the median
my mom crying on my phone
cause her son finally let the demons win

I tried my best
put it on my headstone
lemme rest
my life was full of stress
I'm depressed
she looked me in the eyes
told me that she loved me
but the love was just a lie

love is just a lie
love is just a lie
love is just a lie
will I make it out alive
will I make it through the night
don't think I'll survive
demons in my mind
running out of time
I'm running out of time

I don't wanna breathe
put my head underwater
R.I.P my dreams cause their
dead and forgotten
I don't have a soul
cause my ex girl was rotten
walking down these halls
all these memories they haunting

fell into a nightmare
I'll never wake up
I don't really say much
these people fake tough
cause when I show up
they all go quiet
they can sense my pain
they don't want me get violent

like a star
I am fucking shining
but I'm also burning
which really means I'm dying
yeah I loved her
but she just loved lying
took my happiness
for simply mother fucking trying
all the pain she put me through
I thought it would be worth it
now I'm just a mess
and shes still fucking perfect
just forgot me
left me in the past
ending it tonight
just to find the peace at last