Ash Pool - Gemini the Winter Night

bound together
today i am there
slow, soft, yielding
my life
this is what they will want
lets go take together
february ritual

diffuse, cold, wet,
i was three
i remember
when i was being raped in the vagina by him
earth, the moon
associated with water
like an undertow
in the ocean of satan
and raped in the anus by his oldest son
light will not be bound by the edges of the univers
at the same time forced to perform
oral sex on another of his sons
fast, hard, solid

every advance is complemented by a retreat
they made me perform oral sex on them right after they raped me
focused, hot , dry

now it is hard to have a decent love for god
associated with fire,
i don't want my child
to go through hell
sky, the sun,
there are things that i can't talk to god about
there are times that i wanted to kill myself
but the thought why send my soul to hell
who knows what true pain and scars rape really does leave

and every rise transforms into a fall
a seed will sprout from the earth
and grow upwards towards the heaven
when it reaches its full potential height, it will fall