Gurthang - Disarming Reflex

Not a single day without tears and pain
Lost in this maze of never ending suffering
I try to hide but there's no one to seek
I try to run but my legs are swollen
And the dagger dives deeper in my stomach
I bleed inside so you wouldn't see
Sudden spasm and all my muscles hurt
I vomit blood and rip my larynx out
Would have pushed fingers into my eyes
But then that picture would last forever
So I turn my intestines inside out
Left alone on the frozen stone
Rotten flesh and blackened blood
Throat swollen from the taste of bitter tears
Shrunken lungs thrown up in disarming reflex
Pieces of broken glass pushed into entrails
Tomorrow - my final breath
Exhale - remains the same
Inhale - thrust its knives in me
Silence - broken with agony
Implode - the desolated soul
Bury me - ground between the rails
Forget me - against the mirror
Feel me - in shivering air
Taste me - in the burning rain
Hear me - traveler in black
Fear me - dragging behind
See me - in the red sun
Kill me - with the knife of lies
Tear me - as I count the time
Break me- as one second stops
Leave me - rip me from inside
And dead black roses no longer hang upside down…